Yesterday

Yesterday was supposed to be an interval run for me, but it felt like everytime I attempted to go do it someone else needed something from me. After work I went home and realized that I was hungry enough that going to do an interval workout on that empty of a stomach was a bad idea, so I ate at around 9:30am. Just when enough time had passed since my meal that I could change and safely do these intervals without throwing up my son needed a ride to the school to get his saxophone. He had dress rehearsal last night for the Maple Fest talent show that is this evening. That's a little difficult to do or practice for when he didn't have his instrument. So I ran him around to see if he could get into the common school to get his horn which was around 11am. Once that was finally taken care of and I was starting to put my running tights on to go do this run my phone rings and it's Mariah who is 7 month pregnant now. She had blacked out at work and hit her head on the floor. So I took off my running tights, put my yoga pants back on and off I went to get her and take her to the ER. By the time that we got done there, by the way she's fine it was 1:30pm and I needed to eat again. At this point I just threw the towel in. Julie had a friend over when I got home and they were arguing with Kaylee. The house was loud and in complete chaos and my husband was trying to work. I think if I had left to go try and run at that point he might have killed me.

So I've planned today a little differently. I've got my running stuff already on. I brought bananas to work so I'm going to be fueled properly. Once work is over all I have to do is take a layer off, put on my running shoes, HR monitor, watch and outdoor gear if it's cold enough for it and run out the door. I figure if I go home and try and do if from there the same thing that happened yesterday will happen today and two days off for no real reason other then that life is crazy is not acceptable.

At least I know I wasn't the only one who had a frustrating day yesterday. Met my coach at the hospital he had fallen off a ladder and I later found out broke his toe. That was definitely worse then my day, and I can't imagine how he feels with a marathon only a month away.

I broke down and took a bath last night like I had thought I might. Shoot was the only time I got to myself all day. I got a glass of ice water, lit some candles, drew a hot bath added some shea butter bath salts and soaked for a good 45mins. When I was done of course I cleaned the whole bathroom, but I was good and relaxed and I think they ultimately helped me to fall asleep faster.

I'm tired today, but I expected to be. I went to bed last night no later then 9:30pm but two days in a row at 3:30am for a wake up time starts to catch up to me no matter what time I go to bed. I may sleep in till 5am tomorrow what a treat :). I won't get a day to sleep past that probably until Tuesday. I'm not entirely convinced that this is a bad thing. I certainly don't feel like I'm wasting the day getting up this early.

I ate a lot yesterday though for not being very active:
6 bananas- breakfast
1 1/2 cucumbers and raw red pepper hummus with honeydew melon (most of a whole one)
Smoothie: 4 scoops carob powder, 11oz coconut water, 2 to 3cups baby spinach 1cup frozen blueberries and 2 frozen bananas
rest of red pepper hummus and 1 yellow pepper.

It's hard sometimes to watch the rest of my family eat cooked food I once enjoyed. Some examples include: "cheese" sauce (LOVED this with brown rice crackers) Mac & "Cheese", "Cheesey" broccoli rice casserole, Cheater pad thai, GF bread with brown gravy, GF pasta and sauce, guacamole and brown rice crackers those are some of the highlights but the list really could go on.  I remind myself how eating that food makes me feel. Easy to stay focused on feeling the best I can possibly feel and knowing that in order for that to happen I need to eat the cleanest possible diet. For the next month I will take in no overt fats, no nuts, seeds or avocado. I will have no kombucha and I will be more mindful and only eat when I'm actually hungry. I want my cardiovascular system functioning as best as it possibly can for this race. I also want to hit that sweet spot of body weight so aerodynamically I'm unstoppable.

No matter how I do, I'm looking forward to the experience. To be able to say, I ran a marathon.

Thursday Ramblings.

Time has changed very little. I have learned some things over the last few weeks. One of which of course has to do with my body and food. I will not be going back to a cooked food diet EVER. I am not sure that I will ever go back to drinking alcohol either. First part of April my husband and I went away for a weekend. We had a great time, but this weekend included drinks (of course) and it ended with a cooked meal at an awesome taco place (still vegan) in Burlington. Was the worst impulse decision that I have made in a long time. I paid for this meal in my training for nearly 2 weeks. It wasn't until about a week ago that my system finally got sorted out. It felt like I was running with lead instead of legs and cardiovascularly running was a nightmare. Thankfully last Thursday my body finally got over it. That being said the husband and I are going away again the first weekend in May and I'm trying to decide if I'm even going to drink. It doesn't bother me physically too bad, but it does take me time to not be dehydrated. My skin breaks out a little bit the first week after having a couple drinks and I am more tired and run down as my body tries to filter out the poison I put into it. As I type that I'm thinking it's totally not worth it especially with the marathon being only 30 days from tomorrow. It's getting so close and what I put in my body and what I do nutrition wise between now and race day could mean a good race, or the worst run of my life. I'd like to lean toward a good race if at all possible.

Overall training is going well. I have days I don't want to run (of course I do it anyway). I have training runs that I dread, but I think that is just due to previously difficult training runs. Today is intervals, it's kind of cold out and it's supposed to be windy -_- which means these could either be easy or extremely difficult. Either way I NEED to do them so no sense stressing about it. Get them done and over with and move on with the day. Yesterday was a low motivation day. I usually try and get my runs out of the way in the morning so I can shower, dress and have a good rest of my day without a "You have a run to do." looming over my head.

I'm hoping to see the sun today. This weather the last few days just sucks the motivation right out of me. It's been off and on rainy and cloudy and not very warm. At this point I would even take cold weather if the sun came out for a few hours a day. I'm so sick of the dark gloomy skies it's such a downer.

I'm at work this morning and it's chilly in here. Brought my slippers with me though so my feet aren't at least all stressed from wearing my Dansko's all morning. Stressed arches + interval run= :( unhappy feet and legs for the rest of the day. Not a sinereo I wanted to deal with so I did a little planning ahead to avoid it. Now that I just found out I'll be here an hour later then originally planned not only is my run pushed out, but I didn't bring breakfast so I'm hoping I'll have enough reserved energy and can stave off hunger long enough to go home and change and get this run done before I NEED to eat. You wouldn't think an hour would make that big of a difference, but it really does.

I may take a bath tonight and pamper myself a little. I have to open tomorrow too, but I don't do much for myself lately but run. I have a bunch of errands I need to do today after I finally get my run done and my shower in. Mariah's baby shower is this weekend and I need to get a fruit and veggie platter ordered along with a cake. Decorations need to be bought and I need to firm up the details of the games that we will play. In all that between now and Sunday I need to clean the downstairs at least. Oh and not to mention I'll be running in the St. Albans 8.5 mile Sap run Sunday morning. Work tomorrow and Saturday, and Tyler's talent show tomorrow night. Busy week that's for sure, and then next week will be another heavy mileage week for my feet.

I'm pretty sure when I cross that finish line in May I will probably cry. I've put so much of myself into getting ready for this. Sweat, tears, blisters, lost toenails, I've fought through low motivation days when I didn't feel like running. I've gotten past days I wanted to quit and just give up. I'm doing something a lot of people can't and won't and I'm proud of the progress that I've made towards this goal. Something funny? I'm already signed up to do another marathon next year and I haven't even completed my first one yet. Addicted to running much? Yeah I might be :) but there are worse things to be addicted to I think.